Saturday, November 27

A Real Holiday

Hi there! Wow, things have been busy around here. We hosted a wonderful Thanksgiving with chosen family and bio family. Our tiny house was full to the rafters with kids. My parents stayed at a B&B, which helped everyone have a better time, I think. Dinner was delish if I do say so myself, and Sara and I had an absolute blast spending obscene amounts of money at Northampton Wools and Webs. It's official: I am now at the point where they laugh at me when I walk up to the counter with a big pile of yarn. Yes, laugh. At me. Buying yarn. Sara, I believe, described it as a "guffaw." I got 10 balls of Kureyon to make another Klaralund. At some point. Hey, I got the 25% discount because Sara, my mom and I all combined our purchases, so it was like $6 a ball, okay? And that's no shipping, no tax. Okay? Guilty conscience, here. They did get very interested when I mentioned possibly trading some consulting for store credit. Now, in addition to my other freelance job (ugh!) I need to do a letter for Webs proposing the idea more formally. Guess which one I'm motivated to do?

I have been having some second thoughts about my decision to let my job go when the grant is up next fall (I know it's the right thing, but it's a very "good" job in all the normal ways, it just doesn't make me feel good about myself and my work), but this makes me feel a bit more confident that I will find my way and find something I'm more passionate about. I've always dreamed of working in fiber arts, ever since I was a teen, and I fantasized about becoming a professional weaver (have I ever learned to weave? no.). I need to have faith that I can do this, that I can have more than just a *good* job, but instead, a job that I love. Heck, I never really believed I'd have a good job, so it's amazing (and plenty scary) to grab for that brass ring. We'll see. I'm still not thinking of making a living as an artist, but using my marketing/marketing research skills in the fiber arts field, heck, maybe I'll be able to pay myself more than minimum wage AND work in fiber arts, right?

The holiday was so wonderful--perhaps the first time in my life I felt that warm glow people talk about during holiday celebrations. I thought, this is what holidays should be like--kids making a ruckus, people knitting, Harry Potter, eggnog with rum, and our course our longstanding family tradition of More Pies Than People. My parents had their wacky moments, but heck, my mom asked Sara and me to teach her how to knit, and she got off and running quite quickly. It was nice to have the sane counterbalance of Sara and Terry to neutralize my parents (and the b&b didn't hurt either!).

Ahhhh. Nice weekend. Too bad the end of it is marred by freelance work, and then a week of solo parenting while DP goes to Colorado to help SIL get through her fourth chemo treatment. She's hanging in there, but it's getting harder. Sara knitted her a chemo cap too, which Rhys will bring out.

When I get the photos off my camera (any suggestions for a digital camera with good macro capabilities that is EASY to download from--mine is a nightmare), I'll show you the knitting debacles I am engaged in, including Eloise on the verge of running out of yarn and The Lopi Sweater I Have To Frog.

Happy happy...

1 comment:

Jenifer said...

Hi Cate,

Just catching up on your blog ... glad to hear that your T-day went well! How nice. Ours was all right, but MIL can be a little inflexible and nervous (and by a little, I mean a lot) but I'm glad we went out, even though it's a coupla long days to "the Cod" (as I used to call it) and back. (I'm not blogging about this on my blog, for fear that she'll one day read it, so I just thought I'd share here.) Visited two yarn stores, details forthcoming. Very interesting about this troll! Obviously s/he's questioning motives, and finds you food for thought, so that's good (I guess). Happy birthday to you! I, too, am frozen in time since my kids were born ... my son will be 5 soon, and I'm saying to myself, "Self, it's been half a decade that you've been up to this crazy parenting stuff, and half a decade since you've slept well ..." and I pat myself on my back. And regarding the job switch, if you follow your dreams now, when looking back on the changes you will have made, you'll say to yourself -- why didn't I do this sooner? Just my advice. :) Thanks for the invite to your house ... maybe some day I'll visit the famed WEBS, and I'll get a chance to meet you, too! Sorry for the rambling, but take care!
Jenifer
http://knittingat5337.blogdrive.com if anyone wants to drop by!